I have been having an on/off breakup/getbacktogether, fuck/not fuck, end to a almost 3 year relationship that started when i was 16. I’m almost 19 now. 
i grew up, joined a band, tried drugs, used drugs, abused drugs, cried, cheated and had almost every experience with this girl. Shes gone.
i try every couple days to say something, nice.. and genuine and be the boyfriend i never was. I get a few texts then she’ll disappear for the day with no trace until 2 days later, with no explanation of what happened, or no mention of anything.
I’ve decided by the last two days that…  Shes gone. so thats that. 

I have had a huge struggle smoking less weed than i do, but the upside to this. is i have almost quit ciggies. and although weed isnt any better than straight tobacco. I could smoke up to 10G of tobacco a day, compared to 1g a day or less of mix. but again..i shouldnt be a stoner. it’s bad.

i have a new room, that accodomates all my stoner buddies, and we sit and we smoke and my fucking god is it good. 
but as a kid in a band trying to be a famous dude who yells into a microphone for a living, its not fucking my voice up. its just affected my breathing and my lungs w…adhjasdla.

im rambling shit. IM just pissed off about shit being on the down slant recently. need something to change quickly.


Point to the story is.


Fuck women, you try be a nice guy for once and get it thrown back in your face. 

Weed is very easily to get stuck in, so if your gonna do it. Be gentle, dont turn into a fiend and respect it. Weed can change your day, but can ruin your life. 

cone time.

Adrian